I should have known you'd bring me heartache;

I've been feeling really horrible the last coupe of days, and I can't figure out why.

Yesterday my mom wouldn't stop poking me, so i went all ballistic and started crying for no reason.
Then my two best friends didn't come to school today, so I had no one to talk to who would actually talk back, besides Phil, who I only get to talk to once or twice a day.
I feel like I'm losing my best friend to a girl who we just met this year, who happens to be my other best friend.
I feel like my friends are leaving me out of everything, and not telling me things.
I'm failing half my classes, and then freaking out about it.
And I feel lonely.
My life just feels so un-real right now, and quite bluntly I wish it was.

Sometimes I wish I could just go back and change everything.