Nouns and verbs like shallow heartache;

Saturday my dad picked me and my sisters up so we could go to our Grandma's because she was having a crab feast.

It was fun.
I hadn't eaten anything in almost a day and a half so I ate like a starving person.
And of course I cut my finger and got seasoning in it which burned.
Then I helped clean up while everyone else was still eating so apparently I wasn't that hungry.

I was happy because I actually talked to my cousins for the first time in years without it being strained and awkward.
My grandfather taught me an awesome card trick.
And I met my cousins boyfriend.
Horrible, horrible, horrible.

Not her boyfriend, the situation.
Her boyfriend is perfect in every way.
In fact he is everything I'd ever want in a boyfriend.
Nice, smart, adorable, caring.
He opened the door for me and pulled out my chair while I sat in it.
Who said chivalry is dead?
I just felt it click.

I mean is it really that bad to like you're cousins 20 year old college student boyfriend?

You know if it wasn't for the fact he was 20 and was dating my cousin, I think I might have had a chance.
But, why?
Why do I always want the people I can't have the most?