Your memories will always haunt me like a ghost;

Have you ever felt like you needed someone.
I mean needed someone so badly that it hurt?
I need someone.
I need the person who walked out of my life a year ago to come back.
I can't take it, not one second longer.
It's so difficult to have someone there everyday, to talk to, but then they just leave one day, and you feel like you might never get them back.
It drives me insane every second their not here.

I hate how people can have control over me.
I hate how I still care, how I have to care.
Yet I could never give up caring.
I feel worthless and inferior to them now.
And I don't even know them anymore.
I want to hate them, but no matter how hard I try it isn't possible.
I want to tell them I never want to see their face again, I never want to hear their voice again, I never want to think about them ever again, but I know they would all be lies.
Plus I know that they are the only person who can make me come crawling back no matter what.
But after all, you can't hate love.


I don't know what their thinking, or if they ever think of me.
I can't tell when their lying, or telling it from the heart.
They make me cry and smile and ache, but they always know how to make me happy.
Amazing how one person can make you feel the whole void of human feelings in the course of 5 minutes.


I know I've written about this same exact thing at least four times, but I can't help it.
What do you do when it's all you think about?