Do you ever dream of us together?;

Yesterday was interesting.
I was going to go to the Catonsville homecoming game with Megan.
My mom went all psycho and said she was going to drive me because she didn't want me to go over Megan's house.
Then she picked me up from school and we went to the laundry mat to wash out blankets.
All of sudden she says "Call Megan and ask her if it's OK if I drop you at her house now"
Then I got dropped off at Megan's house, when she wasn't there.
So I went into her room, almost had a heart attack because her cat was sitting on her bed and it scared me.
I read one of the books she got out of the library until she got there.
Then she pulled a Stephanie by hitting her head on her door frame.
Her dad gave us a glow stick.
Her dad told me he wanted to show me something, so he said "Go into the closet", he came in, closed the door, and turned the lights out.
So I started screaming "STRANGER DANGER!"
He was showing me this night-vision thing he had.
Then he showed us his duck calls, which I couldn't figure out at first until he told me I was blowing in the wrong end.
Her dad showed me old pictures of their family and things Megan made when she was little.
We pondered over why Ryan's birth certificate had a whole bunch of secret stars on it and Megan's didn't have any.
Then we were waiting for our ride to come (Hannah and her mom).
We went to the game when it was just starting.
We met up with Sophie, Nusheen, Tyler, Nick, Ian, Laura, and other people I can't remember.
I got to see Moses again, still cute as ever.
Catonsville lost by one point.
Then we saw Dalton, Chelsea, and Mike Brown.
It was odd because they started talking to us even though they've never said anything to me before.
Then we had a discussion about God and Jesus.
We got yelled at by the cops because we were waiting for a ride.
Then Hannah's dad came and drove me to Megan's house,
My mom let me stay over there until 10:30.
We made Ramen of Steel and watched Degrassi.
The whole episode was about sex and it was just really funny.
Then I left with my mom and we went to the high-school to wait for Jen because she was at a field trip.
We were waiting there for a long time.
The lights kept flickering on and off at the school and just when I thought I had figured out their pattern, they changed it.
They knew I was catching on to them.
Anyway, I put the front seat of the car all the way back and my mom covered me with two dish-rags we had laying in the car.
They ended up being 33 minutes late.
Then we went home and I crashed and ended up sleeping on my mom's bed.

Please come with me;

Thursday was great.
Geometry was boring, but then T.J. came over and talked to me about music.
Baby class was epic.
Whappel pulled out jello that we thought was 30 years old, then she put on a cat mask and read us a very weird book, that could be interpreted in many perverted ways.
Avid was fun because we spent the whole time doing nothing even though we were supposed to be doing tutorial.
Wolrd history was uneventful, as was Chemistry, except me and Shawn got into a fight about his girlfriend Nicole.
Then I went to lunch.
Which was very lunch like.
English we took a fair amount of notes.
Gym we played badminton, my favorite sport ever.
The onlt problem was Sean kept staring at me.
Then I went to S.A.D.D.
Me and Cody almost finished our poster, but now it's not needed until Thanksgiving.
We had a fight about who was a bigger wuss, and then I drew on his face to see if we had the right color green for a weed leaf.
Then we left early to go to art club to finish our project for the cafe, but by the time we got there it was over because Mrs. V had to catch a train.
So we had a secret meeting in the scetchbook buffet.
Then me, Megan, and Cody stood at the flag-pole until our rides came.
We had fun jumping on each other and trying to catch each other.
Then Sean came over and we had arandom dance party.
They tried to teach me and Megan "The Candycane" but we butchered it horribly.
Then Nuggets came over and jumping judo kicked Sean in the back.
We had a mint fight, then my mother came.
While we were driving we saw Mrs.V so we gave her a ride to the light-rail station.
It was a fun day.

I know you're alone tonight;

I hate it when Megan's sad.
It makes me sad.
Especially when she types things in her blog about me being meanish.
I know it's childish, but if there was ever a person who I cared what they thought about me it would be her.
She has all these relationship problems and I don't know how to fix them because I can barely maintain my own relationships.
She seems like all she ever does is cry anymore.
I don't know what to do.

I can't help but think I'll die alone;

I saw The Strangers today.
It was one of the most boring movies I have ever seen in my life.
I slept through the whole thing.
I woke up just in time to see the "Are you a sinner?" part.
I laughed hysterically at it and then my dad yelled at me and told me to be quiet.
I can see why they made so much fun of it.

It could be fun to fire your gun;

Movie night was epic.
Where to begin.
I guess the beginning would be a good spot.

Well, we had horrible planning so I had to rush to get there.
I thought it would be enough time to get there if we left my house at 4:30, but apparently that's not so.
So we were rushing to get to the theater because me mom took the super long hard way, even though she claims she didn't, she did.
We got there and I realized I still had my flip-flops on and it was cold so my feet froze.
Megan almost gave me a heart-attack.
It was Keith's birthday.
Colby went in and bought a ticket, which I didn't understand because the movie we were seeing was rated R, I didn't find out until later that they bought tickets for a different movie, which should have occurred to me.
Then we snuck in and went to see Quarantine.
It was a bad movie but it was made hilarious by the commentary.
Halfway through me, Megan, and Hannah went to go to the bathroom.
When we came back in we were walking down the "hallway" that's right through the door and I banged my face into the wall.
It was hilarious and we were laughing so loud that they could hear us at their seats.
Then we had to go back to the bathroom because I laughed myself all up into a tizzy and had to pee really bad.
Then when we came back the second time Megan stepped on my shoe and it flipped off my foot, and I couldn't find it, which made us burst into a whole new fit of laughter.
I later found out that my shoe cut my foot.
Then we finished watching Quarantine which was the first movie I actually screamed at, mostly because Megan screamed and it scared me.
Haha, even Cody jumped at one part.
Then we snuck into City of Ember.
Me and Cody had our first kiss before it started, conveniently while the song "My Heart Will Go On" was playing.
Haha, I know, cheesy.
It was a good movie, but there was a lot of rape.
Then we had to pick apart everything that they changed because it was based on a book.
Then we went to see Eagle Eye.
I used a lot of deductive reasoning during that movie.
We saw Brandon, the boy we put our faces in his crotch.
Then we left to go to Wendy's.
It turns out Wendy's wasn't opened so we had to go to the gas station and get food there.
These black guys who somehow knew Dustin asked me and Megan to steal them Reese's cups, so we bought them some but they wouldn't eat them because they were sugar free.
Although they did taste nasty.
We played a couple games of doughnut soccer and then went back to go see Sex Drive.
We got caught in the act by GREEN SHIRT GUY.
He interrupted our dance party, then tattled on us.
We were told to "leave the premises" by a fat cop who waddled, so we walked to the outer rim of the movie theater.
We stood on a corner at 12 am in front of a motel.
Me and Keith had a battle royale over my Harry Potter jacket.
We made some startling revelations, such as it smelled like a sewer where we were sitting because there was a sewer right next to us.
Then we went home at 1 am, freezing cold.
It was epic.

A temporary stand-in for your face;

On the other hand I had a wonderful time at Lindy's.
We made macaroni (and cheese).
We discussed crunchy leaves.
We watched Jesus Christ Superstar, which gets better every time you see it.
We tried to decapitate Hannah Montana, which didn't work too well.
I tried on the Mad Hatter costume which looks nothing like the Mad Hatter if you ask me, but beggars can't be choosers.
I remember when I didn't know what that meant.
Anyway, then my mom said I couldn't do Haunted Hallows so we dropped Lindy off and I went back to her house with her mom and waited for my mom to come pick me up.
Her mom is pretty cool.
It was fun.

They might fill your place;

I hate this.
I hate this.
I hate this.
I hate this.
I HATE THIS!

I want to punch something.
Seriously, I'm mad.
Can't you tell?

Take everything away from me;

Today has been a real man day.
I came home early and me and my mom were watching the Steve Wilkos show and h started talking about being a real man.
Then Jerry Springer came on and some guy on there was talking about being a real man.
Then we went to pick Tuesday up from school and on the way back I saw a billboard that said "Real men wear gowns" and I just couldn't contain myself anymore.
I can't wait until real man day!

Everybody scream your hardest;

Random story time.

Today when I was at the nurse she randonly told me I was pretty.
She said she didn't understand why I would get my lip pierced because it makes her look at my mouth and not my beautiful eyes.
Then she told my mom.

I don't know, it just made me feel, well, it made me feel pretty.
=]

Like a cutthroat sing-along;

So my mom is acting really weird lately.
Everyone's acting really weird actually.

My mom said I'm allowed over Megan's.
She didn't yell at my sister when she skipped the pep rally and went to her boyfriends house.
She took me to Wal-Mart with her to get "milk" then ended up buying me new bedstuff.
She picked me up early from school.
She's getting along with my dad.
It's just really weird and not like her.

Jen has a boyfriend so she's acting all different.

Lindy barely talkes to me anymore.

James turned into a dush again.

Cheyenne doesn't talk to me, except to mention Dan.

Michelle doesn't talk to anyone, at all anymore.

Even I feel different.
I don't know why, or even how I'm different.
It's just how I feel.

Would you wash it all down;

So swing club turned out to be more work then I thought.
We have to write a proposal about what the club is for and what were going to do, who our advior is and who is in it.
Then after all theat we have to meet with the principal, then our advisor has to meet with the principal.
Then after all that work, there's still the possibility that they won't accept the club!
It's insanity.


Which reminds me of all the work me and Kayla have to do for our AVID feild trip.
I never knew such a little thing could take so much work.

Tonight I feel so proud;

Well today I'm feeling completely horrid.
I'm sick.
My brain won't stop working.
Jeez, do I have problems or what?

I just haven't been feeling very myself lately.
I haven't been sleeping, like at all.

It's really boring being home when everyone else is at school.
You have no one to talk to.
I just hope me and Lindy will have a lot of fun on Thursday.
Then movie night will be spectacular no matter what.
I just hope I'm not still sick then.
I would just stay home from school tomorrow but we have the PSAT's.
Stupid 3 hour tests!

There is no spine in my back;

I actually went to the pep rally.
It wasn't that bad, plus I got picked up early.
I don't know why everyone bad-mouths it.
I wonder way to much lately......

I have failed but I'm used to it;

Wednesday and Thursday were wonderful.
Me, Meg, and Cody went to the "S.A.D.D. meeting", which turned out to actually be float making, so we left.
We ran to a tree and laid under it, until I started throwing grass at everyone for no reason.
Then we heard people coming so we ran to a different tree and sat under it.
We went to Speedy-Mart an ran back to yet another tree.
Cody ran away with my book.
Then me and Megan went to her house.
We made three packs of Ramen and ate them all while trying to watch Godspell which turned out to be really boring and creepy.
Then I played Rockband while she listened to music on the computer which is our usual routine.
Then we went to sleep.
I woke up and waited for her to get up the next day.
We watched Rent.
We stole her brothers laptop, didn't get dressed until 12:30, used all the mayonnaise, I almost got Iodine poisoning (not really), had a battle about where to meet with Cody, found Whappel at Hollywood, had traumatic experiences (a.k.a. me having a bug in my hair and flipping out).
Then Cody finally got to Hollywood and we walked to Kayla's house.
We were given peanuts, and Megan picked up smoking.
Then we went downstairs and painted on Kayla's wall.
Mine kept dripping every time I turned away.
Cody wouldn't tell us his middle name and then he wrote Whappel's number on the wall for people who wanted to club baby seals.
We went to Peace of Sunshine and bought footbags and talked to the guy in there.
Then we played and the footbag rolled out into the street and we were just standing there screaming get it but not a single car was coming.
We went to Rite-Aid and played it the aisle and no one said anything.
Then I left my book at Kayla's.
It was wonderful.

Sorry that most of that was incoherent thoughts.

Don't put your faith in the desert sand;

Everything has been turned upside down.
It's confusing me.
Been mashed up beyond recognition.
My parents actually getting along.
Me and my mom actually getting along, and her NOT yelling, for once.
Me telling someone exactly what I was feeling.

I don't know whether to be scared or excited.

Poison, time killed slowly;

Movie night in one word: FANTASTIC.

I love our movie nights so much.
First Megan's dad came and picked us up from the twins house at 3:40 and we got at the movies at about 3:50.
The movie didn't even start until 4:40.
Me and Megan stood there for 10 minutes waiting for Cody and Colby to get there while pretending to be James Bond because there was James Bond music playing.
Then Cody and Colby got there and we had about 40 minutes so we stood on the side of the building and talked and laughed.
Then Colby went to buy the ticket for Beverly Hills Chihuahua, which we thought was funny because he was a guy going to a little kids movie seemingly by himself.
So he got the ticket and snuck us in while me and Megan had a panic attack.
It was ok, but it was predictable, the commentary made by Colby and Cody made it much more enjoyable though.
Then when it was over we went to the bathrooms to wait until the next movie.
Then me and Megan had a water fight because they had those sinks with sensors that know when you're hands are under them and come on automatically.
Then we went to wait for the boys and they came out with a tiny glow stick so me and Megan went to see if we had them on our bathroom and I ended up falling on the floor because it was all wet.
Then we went to the next movie, Lakeveiw Terrace, which was funny because the people in the movie lived on Lakeview Circle.
We were the only white people in the whole movie theater because you know how black people love that Samuel L. Jackson!
He was so racist in the movie, and he knew the difference between discipline and abuse.
Halfway through the movie I accidentally knocked over the thing of Skittles we were eating and every single person in theater turned and looked at us.
Then every time me and Megan would move, Skittles would mysteriously fall out of nowhere.
We had about an hour until the next movie started so we walked to Wendy's and got real food.
By this time me and Megan were soaking wet because we had had another water fight and it was the middle of the night and we had to go outside so we were freezing.
Then we walked back and Cody bought a ticket and let us in but me and Megan were freaking out even more because there was a cop sitting in front of the theater.
We saw Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist.
It was amazing.
I adore Michael Cera.
Colby opened his glow stick and started writing on himself with it until I told him neon it poisonous.

Then it was over and Colby's mom drove us to Megan's house and Megan's dad drove me home.
By the time I got home it was 12 and I just crashed on the sofa.
I love movie nights.

It was only a kiss;

Leaning in.
Looking.
In my eyes.
Tilts my head.
Soft as pillows.
Lips meet lips.
Heart racing......


waiting for more.

I'm leaving;

Homecoming is 9 or less days away and I still don't have a dress, or a ticket, or a date for that matter.
Uggh, I might just not go.
But I have to because I basically forced Cody to go and I can't just ditch him.
Just like I made him go to S.A.D.D.
Cody, his name seems to be coming up a lot recently.....

I'm a gangsta, gangsta;

Where to begin?
I haven't written anything for a long time and I guess the reason is, I haven't had any time.
I've been busier then a bee.

First: Moving.
Who knew we could have so much stuff in such a small fucking house!
I'm so sick of having to do everything myself because the rest of my family is to fucking lazy.
My entire body has been shot.
I can barely move my arm muscles.
And I still have to put everyhting in my room away.
But I can't until my dad builds the wall.
Which who knows how long that could be!
I cannot live in a room you can hardly move around.
I have to got to school on top of that.
Then I have my grades to worry about along with the fear of someone finding out that I moved and making me go to city school.

Me and Mike broke up and I already have a new boyfriend.
Mike's pissed and I can't help but feel guilt and whorish.
I feel like all those "typical" girls who go through boys like water.

Shawn is seriously getting on my fucking nerves.
Him and his stupid girfriend.
He keeps saying stupid shit to me about how I am.
How the fuck does he know how I am?
And his girlfriend is trying to get my new boyfriend to break up with me.
I can't believe people sometimes.

Megan had sex.
For the first time.
I don't know how to feel.
Dissapointed?
Proud?
Worried?
Happy?
I'm mostly just feeling confused.
I didn't think she would.
I'm just glad shes no different.
Even though we never have time to talk anymore.
I feel like she doesn't tell me everything anymore.

Cody's confusing me too.
I mean, I like him, but he's my friend.
I have a boyfriend too.
I just couldn't bear to have our friendship ruined.

Which reminds me, I can't wait until the movies tomorrow.
Megan better go.
I need them to make me feel better about all of this.
They can cheer me up.
I wonder what we're going to see.